Worrying so much!
I wish I didn't worry so much. I am generally quite a sunny, happy person (I hope!) but I can get a bit caught up in nervous energy and worry so much! For example, right now I am worried about Eric being ill. He has a cough and a temperature, and his temperature hasn't gone down after paracetamol. I am now worried he is really, REALLY ill. That he might overheat or something awful happen (I can't even type all my worries about it as they scare me so much) Especially because he hasn't been eating well the last month. This makes my thoughts run away with me and I'm worried that he might have a chest infection? An ear infection? A kidney infection? Could it even be something serious like cancer? :( It's probably just a cold and after a good rest he'll be fine! But these dark thoughts just won't go away. I also worry about money, death, Alex being away, the end of the world, if Eric's developing normally, if he's happy and ok, if people like me, if bad things were to happen to my loved ones, sleeping away from home, if the house is clean enough....it's an endless list! I would love to be able to have a more relaxed outlook about life!